Hi Everyone, It’s been awhile since I’ve written. I’ve been so busy with my job and my new nephew and of course my hair, what else. I definitely have enhanced coping skills but there is no denying the impact hair loss has on my life today. Tonight I have a get together with some friends I have not seen in a year, I was actually suppose to have this dinner weeks ago! But I managed to wiggle out of it with an excuse to only delay the inevitable. It sounds awful I know. I mean I going to be spending time with my fiance and a great wonderful couple, but all I think about it my hair. I’d wiggle my way out one more time if I could, but I just can’t. I actually cried about it days ago when the final plans were made. I was so upset after my fiance hung up the phone finalizing the time, making reservations and everything. I felt angry and sad. I had a major meltdown and was crying, and all at once I was flooded with all my hair loss devastation emotions. Each day since I’ve been looking at today like some kind of punishment. I hate feeling this way. But I know better, I know how I regret looking back on the last 8 years of life and missing out on so many things, fun, laughter… living. I’ll do my best to make myself feel good. I’ll start getting reading extra like 4 hours early because I have to prepare for my possible hair frustrations. Nothing is worse that have a hair tantrum and being late at the same time. So if I start early I’ll have plenty of time to prepare myself physically and emotionally 🙂 Who knows, I may even end up having a good time. I’ll keep everyone posted about how it goes.
In general my hair loss does seem to being doing better. The loss seems to have definitely slowed, but I am not really seeing any regrowth. I’m not hoping for miracles only to get back perhaps what I lost in the last year (since that deadly shed that never seemed to end) . Hopefully in time things will thicken up a bit. Just enough to get by, thats all I need.
One last thing I’d like to mention, for those women who haven’t yet check out the Women’s Hair Loss Project Network
http://community.womenshairlossproject.com
I encourage you to make a visit. It is a real unique way to connect with other women suffering with hair loss as well and there are so many wonderful supportive women on there. Well that time is nearing when I’ll have to start getting ready for my night out. I remember when this used to be such an easy process, shower, blow dry and go in 30 minutes. *Sigh*
P.S. I’m really really sorry for the duplicate email that got sent out yesterday to the subscribers that contained several of the previous posts in it. I switched the site over to a new server and it seems feedburner (the subscriber service) recognized some of those posts as new even though they were not. So apologies for any inconvenience that caused.
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Hi. I so know how you feel. I was braver until my scalp really started to show. It really is hard to loss hair. I am asking myself what is the solution. I won’t run around with my scalp showing, so am trying hair pieces, hats, scarves, etc.
Hang in there. We have good and bad days. Your courage will come back, and solutions will follow. In the meantime, I hope that your evening turns out very well. After all we are not our hair. Big hugs, Rachael Jean